I need to blog more often. I need to somehow tell my story so that I will be able to read about it when it is over and know how I got from there to here. Or from here to there...wherever it is I am going and wherever it is I came from. I know the past few years I have had a lot of ennui and frustration with my job and my life in general. I finally just jumped ship, the ship being my job, and am now swimming in a sea of change. I'm currently still excited, hoping I don't falter and drown, and I think that once I get over the shock and disbelief I feel towards myself and my situation, I might be ok!
I didn't just walk out without a plan, but I was actually so unhappy for awhile, I was hoping to be fired or laid off. I know a lot of people stay at jobs they hate because they need the money. That was me for awhile, but the more unhappy I became, the less ability I had of going to work every day and thinking it was ok. Life is so short, and to spend so much of it doing something you are unhappy doing is just a waste. Money is important, but so is quality of life, and so I made some changes and some choices so I could give up my steady income, health insurance and company matched retirement plan. I now have 1 more check coming from my job, half a month left before I have no insurance, and the retirement plan is there, but may be a life raft if things go horribly wrong and I have to dig into it to survive for awhile. That is not the plan, but that is my safety net, albeit at the potential expense of my future retirement happiness.
So I am now an unemployed full time student at my local community college. I will be taking classes in health information technology while waiting to be accepted into the nursing program. Ultimately, if things go according to plan, I will have a bachelor's degree in nursing and also have some health information tech skills as well, which hopefully will open the job opportunities for me. My sweetie and I plan to move to Florida in a few years and live out our lives in the warmer weather and have adventures together. Nursing is so needed right now, I could be a home health nurse or a traveling nurse or some other type. I like that it seems to be so flexible.
I am so enjoying NOT having a 8-4:30 job right now, I might actually decide I enjoy random working hours on a regular basis. I want to figure out what I want to do besides work. Right now, it will be studying, as I am sure I'll need to do a lot of that to pass these classes. Afterwards though, when I am established and working, I want to have the time and the contented mentality to still do things I like doing in my free time. That is what I want to try and do now that I have some time to explore. In between studying, I do want to start exploring my interests again. I've been struggling to do that for about 4 years now but have been so frustrated and scatterbrained about it, I haven't really gotten anywhere. I was in some sort of frenzy, having a million interests but no focuses, and I could never grasp one thing to work on, so instead I just got really really stressed! I want to figure out what I really REALLY want to do and focus on that. One or two things that I really enjoy in detail, as opposed to ten things that I have some slight interest in but no time to do since I have so many other interests. I have to come up with a plan so I stay on track and don't stray into that "too much" zone I tend to go to a lot. The important part is that I have taken that first leap by making the huge decision to take the chance of change by quitting my confining job! Right now, the future is limitless....
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